Ok.

This is so wrong on so many levels, but it feels so right. I don’t think I’m going to be able to stop ever. And I’m sorry, I know I shouldn’t have started. I should’ve known better.

But then sometimes, it’s good to take risks. It makes life exciting. Also, it makes you feel that for a moment, you were fearless.

I totally feel like a rebel right now, I’m not kidding. And I’m scared, but at the same time, I’m brave. Ang lakas lang talaga ng loob ko. Pero takot na takot ako, kasi baka nga hindi maganda ang magiging resulta eventually. Iniisip ko yun, pero at the same time, wala rin naman akong ginagawa para lumayo sa’yo. Hindi ko na talaga alam, at ayokong magtanong sa iba kasi mas maguguluhan lang ako. Pero alam ko talagang mali ‘to!! Alam koooo huhuhuhu pero bakit hindi ko kayang tigilan? Please feel my frustration.

Sana lang talaga, worth it tayo. Sana rin maging okay na sa lahat. Sana wala na ‘kong kailangan itago sa iba para hindi na rin ako nagguilty. Kasi sa totoo lang, naiiyak ako deep inside. Huhu my choices in life.